while i'm thinking about it...

prov⋅i⋅dence

    [prov-i-duhns] Show IPA Pronunciation 

–noun

1.	(often initial capital letter) the foreseeing care and guidance of God or nature over the creatures of the earth.

2.	(initial capital letter) God, esp. when conceived as omnisciently directing the universe and the affairs of humankind with wise benevolence.

3.	a manifestation of divine care or direction.

4.	provident or prudent management of resources; prudence.

5.	foresight; provident care.

Origin: 
1300–50; ME < L prōvidentia foresight, forethought. See provident, -ence 

Everything happens for a reason, right?  I've spent most of my life believing in providence (with a small portion of time having been devoted to thwarting what seemed inevitable, in a vain attempt to stay in control of everything)

Lately, I've been thinking that providence is a comforting idea that gives me some sense of security that every decision I make is influenced by a force greater than myself (and obviously, smarter)

problem is...I can't honestly believe that everything is providence...i stumble into a lot of happy accidents (and unhappy ones, too)  after encountering any type of situation in my life, i overanalyze it and try to turn it into some kind of Aesop's Fable or important life lesson.  Perchance, am I thinking too much?   

It's always driven me crazy when something bad happens to me because of "timing" What the Hell is that?  If it happens for a reason or is somehow guided by, why does it matter when it happened?

is it possible that i just need to get some frickin sleep? 

I think I need to go to a concert soon or maybe a hockey game...just something exciting that I can be right in the middle of...unfortunately, my Dallas Stars are seriously stinking it up this year...pfffttt

where the Hell do these people come from???? WTF!!!